Good news and bad news

So, after the disastrous week I had, I have some good news and bad news. The bad news is that I will have to move soon and unless I find somebody to take over my lease (soon) or I have to pay a huge fee to break the lease. The thing is that I don’t feel safe and another is that the law enforcement officers want me to catch physically catch the guy in order for them to really press charges and getting a good look at him won’t count. (I don’t think this would be a good time to practice my football/rugby tackles although the last time I did scare him off with a knife.) I filed a miscellaneous report but that’s all I can do. The resulting effect is that I feel so let down because crimes of a sexual nature don’t just stop. They tend to escalate and I doubt I would be able to contain my anger if I did catch the guy.

I do, however; got some good news. Well, partial good news. My dad claims to have found my passport! (Yays, if I can actually get my hands on it! He also claims to have found his.) The thing is that I have to get it renewed since it expired. There have, also, been some changes about my “citizen” status since then as well, and I’ll have to talk to HK and UK immigration about it. (The only other person in my family that was born in Hong Kong was born to a Chinese father and holds Chinese citizenship.)

It seems so strange that all my life I had no clue what my nationality was. What was my flag and banner? What was my national anthem?

The flag when I was born.


I knew my ethnicity because that is pretty easy. I could just look in the mirror for that, but nationality was harder since I was born overseas to Vietnamese refugee parents. I always felt so lost because even though I was raised in America, I didn’t feel like an American. I was constantly reminded of that everyday because of the jeers I got from people. “Go back to your country,” they would say. It always broke my heart and because of my rootless existence, I felt like I had no place to call home. (I attended seven schools by the time I graduated.) No place to hang my hat or rest my head.

Despite all the years I have lived in the US, I still feel like a stranger stranded on distance shores. Yes, I speak English like a native with no accent, but even still I feel disadvantaged. It’s like I’m listening to a different tongue somedays. When I visiting my parents, I speak Vietnamese or French, but those languages also felt foreign to me. When I speak in either language, it’s always hesitantly , like my tongue is stuck in a barb.

My relatives like to tease me about it. I’m neither American nor Vietnamese to them, and as a result, I’m not very close to them.

My mother wants me to apply for US but my dad wants me to talk to the HK and UK consults first. So, I’m gathering up paperwork for it. My dad is a little more supportive of me going to school overseas since he’s seen how hard it has been for some of my friends to get jobs after they have graduated.


10 Comments on “Good news and bad news”

  1. northernnarratives says:

    Hi. So nice to hear from you again! Leave your apartment!! Follow your heart and you will find your identity. Judy

    • I’m sorry that I fell off the face of the planet for a bit. I’ve just had quite a bit on my plate with the whole stalker business and I also got a freelance writing position for a budding online video game magazine. (No pay but looks good on a resume!)

  2. Rob says:

    I have a friend who’s in a similar situation, not with the creepy stalker, nor nationality (although she is of Korean descent), but deciding where to go to university. She’s from California and is thinking of coming over to the UK, where I am. I was good friends with a Swedish girl who came to England to study too, it’s a big, big change, but the reason my Swedish friend, and the other girl had the idea was because of possible better job prospects and it’s a chance of a lifetime. If you are seriously considering it, do it, otherwise you’ll end up regretting it (also, you’ll knock the top one off your 30-list, maybe 7 too :D).

    I think you’re very brave with the stalker situation. Would it be worth asking other women in your area whether they’ve seen him, or to keep a look out? If you can get more people involved, the police might pay more attention. Perhaps ask your local neighbourhood watch?

    • I would love to go to the UK for school. In fact it is at the top of my list of places to go. If you could give me some more info about it, I would be most appreciative. I just have no clue where to start. (I also found out that my old university classes would not be transferrable. Tout passe.)

      • Rob says:

        Sorry about the massive wait, I’ve been moving this week, starting a new job and everything. I could put you in contact with my friend from California, she knows way more about it than I do. She’s been mainly looking at universities here, entry requirements and so on, and how much it’ll cost. And yeah, she said a lot of her courses don’t count for much either.

  3. Well congrats on getting the new job Rob! The new move must have been exciting. I would love to get in contact with your friend out in California. I would love to pick her brain.

  4. Rob says:

    Thank you! 🙂 Sorry, I didn’t get an email about this, I really am not good at keeping up with replying… The move was exciting, I’m enjoying it now 🙂

    I couldn’t find a way to email you, so I’ll put her email address here, but if you could find some way to not have it appear on your blog or make it hidden, that would be grand.

    • I can definitely keep her email safe. I find that privacy is such a precious commodity in this day and age.

      So far I have emailed the University of Bolton and they normally don’t accept students from the US. Also my citizenship status or lack thereof is making things a little more annoying. I did manage to get my birth certificate so that’s a start right?

      • Rob says:

        You’re right, and thank you. Is it just Bolton that you’re planning on going to? What about the other universities you contacted? That’s a start, yes! Have you decided on where to have your citizenship yet?

        (Sorry if I’m bugging you, I don’t mind if you give me one word answers… but I must have a reply! No I joke, I joke… or do I??? No I do)

  5. Oh, no I don’t mind you asking. Other schools I’ve thought of are Manchester Metro, Leeds, Salford, and I’ve also started looking at school in Scotland as well. To be honest, I’m completely and utterly lost. I was also looking at my citizenship but unfortunately, because of my situation, it’s confusing. I’ve talked to a few immigration lawyers and they’re scratching their heads.

    My skype is ViralLola if you want to get in contact with me. I’m normally on.

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